Sunday, April 10, 2011

Day 18

Day 18: A picture of something you're self concious of.

I have a lot of things I'm self concious of. I'm a girl, duh!

The older I've gotten the less self concious I've become of physical things. Don't get me wrong I still have days where I feel extremely uncomfortable in my own skin, but for the most part those worries have diminished. The things I'm self concious of now are different, like...

I'm scared of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. I'm scared of offending and hurting people. I have a problem with speaking in general sometimes because I can't really say what I'm feeling and put it into words that makes sense to others, hence the reason I'm obsessed with journals :)

... I'm terrified of singing solo's. But I do it anyways because I'm scared if I don't use my talent the Lord will take it away and give it to someone else who will actually use it and not "hide it under a bushel..." (can you tell it's Sunday? lol)

You know what I've learned recently about fears and self conciousness though? It would be odd if we didn't have them. Can you imagine how prideful we would all be if we didn't have insecurites? I think they are such a gift to us because it 1. keeps us humble and 2. actually builds our confidence. Instead of running away from our fears, why can't we try to face them and overcome them to turn them into strengths? If you would've asked me to sing a solo 3 years ago I would've said yes but I would've been almost paralyzed by fear. Now, I still get nervous but it's nowhere near where it used to be. I stopped hiding behind my fear and instead I started attacking it and look at the increidlbe opportunities that have come of that! So, fight your fears instead of hiding from them!

Me singing a solo in front of about 400 peeps while hosting/mcing the institute talent show...:)

Wow, sorry these are all so deep... hahaha

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